...THE THOUGHT OF...

“Life is too short to waste any amount of time on wondering what other people think about you. In the first place, if they had better things going on in their lives, they wouldn't have the time to sit around and talk about you. What's important to me is not others' opinions of me, but what's important to me is my opinion of myself.”  ― C. JoyBell C

Going through the pace of adjustment period is always the part where challenges arises. Before my surgery, I went pretty deep thinking about the pleasant and unpleasant experiences I'm gonna go through after my operation. I noticed that the part of accepting something new especially when it comes to your health is pretty serious. I don't really know if i can make this change especially when it comes to food intake (strict diet menu) in a long term commitment but i will try. lolz


After two to three weeks of not writing my journal. I thought i will be writing again a long paragraphs of thoughts. I remember when i was at the hospital, i started to reflect again on many things especially those experiences that i've encountered from bad and good. I found that there are many people trying to search for love outside themselves and its about searching for someone to show them that love is such a big word and it does mean a lot of things. BUT. in fact, the only person who can actually show you love is YOURSELF. The condition is, IF you open your own heart and forgive, you will eventually find INNER PEACE and not only LOVE. 


There is this friend of mine in Singapore. She always love me since the day one we meet. (12 years ago). She's amazing and i am scared of how much i care and feel the appreciation of how loving she is to me. I am not perfect. I hurt myself sometimes, i hurt her, but we always come to the point of solving things with love. A love friendship. I believe that when you ACCEPT a person for who they are, the day you meet them (no judging the person from the surface)... you will never feel doubt and if there is, you will always go back to the good times and renew. LEARNING how to LOVE is such a tricky one because there will always be challenges that will come along the way. 


Life is really complicated when we complicate it. Im sure you agree with me... but I've learned too that in any relationship there are these few waves that we will go through yet we are still grateful for these feelings, the emotions: the pain, the joy, the sorrow, the heartbreak, the tears of both and neither, there are many people out there who encountered or experienced pain and yet.. we still find LOVE at the end. 


Oh well, that's pretty long one. lolz.. Hope you didn't get bored reading.. lolz.