Sometimes, people judge me
based from what they have had heard. Worst part is that, they will get to know
me.. based from what they heard… lolz..
Sometimes, people will hate
me because of their friend’s influences. That hatred will explode
like a volcano that is full of toxic chemicals that kills anything.
no mercy.
Sometimes, people cannot
just accept me the way i am but wanting me to accept them for who
they are...
Sometimes, people believe
they are saints but infact we are all sinners. We are just missing
the part of acknowledging who we really are…
Sometimes, when people see
you achieve one thing, just one single bloody thing... INSECURITIES
arrises. JEALOUSY. -- oh dear, we are not born to please people
aren't we? - yay! Instead of appreciating we tend to pull the person
down.. its like you even bend your knees pulling that person down...
lolz..
Sometimes, people want you
to listen to them but they don't want to listen to you. They thought
they are listening but infact they're just hearing you... i think
there's a fine line between these words. lolz.
Sometimes, lets face it..
we all lie! who doesn't lie here.. lolz..
I call all these emotions
as the.. ATTRIBUTES OF ATTITUDES.. lolz
THE EVOLUTION OF
IMAGINATIONS? - That came to me when i took a photo of this view.
When you look at that tree in the middle, seems that there’s a
rabbit relaxing under it. Or it could be anything…
It’s already half of the
year and i tell you, for me.. my life was really colorful. I
experience all sorts of obstacles that taught me a lot especially to
become more MINDFUL when it comes to dealing with so many things.
Combating difficulties was the challenging part.
(sometimes) LIFE IS UNFAIR,
i say. - i have to be honest with this one… For example, I thought
that in a certain situation, its perky when you believe that you’re
the only one weighing things, seems that when you understood the
situation more than others, its better that you find a way to
maintain peace instead of war. Although on the other hand,
consequences were ignored.
MISTAKEN which links to
being JUDGE MENTAL- these words i want to be bold at, most of the
time. WE humans, especially toxic gossipers love to judge people. For
some, its already an addiction. It’s like a drug. They can’t
leave without it. lolz
When i was in Scotland, I
really enjoyed our tour guides, they were so lively and so genius
about their history. What i love about the quote they left one day
was when they mentioned about this…
“Never give your reasons,
for your judgement will probably be right, but your reasons almost
certainly will be wrong.” - Lord Mansfield
Anyway, we all have our own
definitions of whatever words we want to define but i still believe
that, with my experience. We should cultivate more COMPASSION in our
lives. It’s always best to put ourselves in the shoes of the other
person before concluding or generating any negative thoughts. We
should stop assuming that we know a person so well and believing that
we are not committing mistakes.
I do made a LOT of mistakes
in my life and I’m glad about it because without it, i may have not
become a bit wiser or know a lot or learned a lot on the process.
Like what they say, its
always greener on the other side of the fence…
“The past no longer
exists. The future has not arrived yet. The only moment we really can
experience is the PRESENT MOMENT which is somewhat we seem most to
avoid.”
I guess, its distinction
is… its better if we keep on the RIGHT NOW not the GONE.. lolz
To sum up my photo
thoughts. With all these extraordinary circumstances. It taught me to
optimize in re-shaping my life specially when merging into the world
of the wilderness. It actually helps in increasing strength,
flexibility and acceptance. It builds PATIENCE & LOVE.
#love #wisdom #patience
#gossip #attitudes #personality #grateful
“If
you have a positive attitude and constantly strive to give your best
effort, eventually you will overcome your immediate problems and find
you are ready for greater challenges.” - Pat
Riley
Listening
to my morning's easy smooth music is really inspiring. It's
practically motivating me to write and say something again here on my blog.. lolz.. I just finished writing on my journal and thought to jump
off here on my wall, not to share what i've written but perhaps
riding on everyone's traditional way... updating our social media, shouts!lolz
Firstly,
I thought i started my month of May pretty good. Instances is that,
there's always something coming. Normal. It's not that can't handle
it but problem is, we have heart so sometimes we get emotional,
silently emotional. (its the time we say, all is ok but in fact, not
really 100 percent ok.. ) right? Been reflecting a lot today and
counted lots of blessings. I put it this way because its true, fact
that there's a always our ups and downs no matter what. I noticed
that I'm presently experiencing adjustments. Many adjustments
actually.
A
monthly review is also a great exercise in mindfulness and conscious
living. It’s my way of slowing down, reminisce about my favourite
moments, making sure that I'm taking the time to appreciate all the
little and big things that were a part of my life in the past months
or years, and also to draw some conclusions about which kinds of
things made me happy and which don’t.
I'm
now trying to set goals and already have some ideas for the months to
come. Few projects needs to accomplish and truly, I'm motivated
everyday with all these challenging experiences. Hopefully this will
also ensure my goals, priorities and values. For now, Im letting
everything sink in for a while and enjoy the day to day things..
Chatting with my family and friends and living the life.. love to
maintain that.. <3
“Sunset
is a wonderful opportunity for us to appreciate all the great things
the sun gives us!” ― Mehmet Murat ildan
Whoa!
It has certainly been a while! I remember the last time I was taking
photos of the ocean was when I was in Indonesia, that was a year ago.
My photo shots is taking me everywhere and I'm really enjoying it.
I've been putting my heart and soul into my new project and hopefully
it will be fruitful in the end.
The
majority of my time will be spent on my website, as i'm busy
upgrading and updating my details and busy also doing my project.
Today,
I thought to change my cover photo because I thought its about time.
Lolz. This sunset photo inspired me a lot lately. From the word
“sunset” it already says something powerful about life.
I
thought this photo speaks to me so well. I've been through all the
ups and downs this past months. Many incidents that is teaching me
and reminding me that sometimes, “shit happens.” In some ways, it
hit me a bit and changed the way I see and do things.
Over
time, I must say that at one stage, my inbox has been flooded with
emails from friends around the world, reminding me.. and I quote..
“hey, you're not that.. people think you're like that, but you're
not..” OR “..expect people to judge you but let it be, it will
pass, real friends will always be there for you no matter what...”
what a sweet lines to read, right?
T'was
really a one wonderful feeling to know that there are people out
there, who cares, loyal and will emotionally support you. I was also
touched when I talked to my best friend Abel about life and shit...
he said, “people love to see you fall so don't get provoked with
their nonsense.. be strong and have faith...” – Going back to my
zodiac, it came to me and made me remember, is this really the year
of the dragon where its being picked by the sheep? Apparently, not
all the dragons are spitting fire, isn't it.. lolz..
As
I was taking a photo of the sunset. I thought i'm gonna sit on this
big stone and leave my camera next to me. I started again to reflect
with so many things. I knew this is what I needed to do. Rewind and
unwind.
You
know, there's something especially powerful about connecting with
people. First, strangers. You will get to know them, become friends,
then fights, then hatred, then enemies until suddenly. Sadness.. then
again, happiness because you start to meet another strangers and will
become friends... its a cycle. But if you come to think about it,
seems, to be a Stranger from the start but the connection brought you
to life. The journey into wholeness, fulfillment, bliss,
self-awareness and purpose that just makes you come even more alive.
So,
as the sun started to slowly bidding goodbye. I finally realized
that, what happened today is gone. We can't undo things. I guess
the sunset speaks a lot with me today. It basically says that, I
should work on letting go and stop caring what everyone else thinking
and instead define MYSELF. That's a lot of thinking but I figured
out how to turn those dark days into something much bigger. I learned
that I should continue to live life (on purpose). I learned what it
meant to feel blissfully alive while living in alignment with my
truth.
(sigh)
Anyways, It's now getting dark so I have to go back to our room. On
my way back, I took few snap shots of the beach. Which i'm gonna be
sharing with you soon.
Life
must move on even if the sun sets. Tomorrow is another day filled
with sun that shines upon us. Be grateful and happiness will
naturally comes back to you.
Much
love my dear Friends and thank you once again for reading my long
journal today.
"When people walk away,
let them. Your future is not about the people who stay in it for the
ride." - Unknown
(yeah, that's what i do...
live life and life will live...)
I thought my weekend went
pretty good.... as always! ❤️ hope you're wrapping your weekend
wonderfully too...
What I love about Sunday is
the part where we do nothing but read, movie and be lazy.
Sharing: Whilst reading my
MINDFULNESS book, I came across a line about "Fortune Telling"
- I laugh because I can relate to this so much. lolz
Here's a cup of tea whilst
waiting yesterday then a quick selfie when we were stuck in the
traffic and quote I took from the book I'm reading..
“Life
is too short to waste any amount of time on wondering what other
people think about you. In the first place, if they had better things
going on in their lives, they wouldn't have the time to sit around
and talk about you. What's important to me is not others' opinions of
me, but what's important to me is my opinion of myself.” ― C.
JoyBell C
Going
through the pace of adjustment period is always the part where
challenges arises. Before my surgery, I went pretty deep thinking
about the pleasant and unpleasant experiences I'm gonna go through
after my operation. I noticed that the part of accepting something
new especially when it comes to your health is pretty serious. I
don't really know if i can make this change especially when it comes
to food intake (strict diet menu) in a long term commitment but i
will try. lolz
After
two to three weeks of not writing my journal. I thought i will be
writing again a long paragraphs of thoughts. I remember when i was at
the hospital, i started to reflect again on many things especially
those experiences that i've encountered from bad and good. I found
that there are many people trying to search for love outside
themselves and its about searching for someone to show them that love
is such a big word and it does mean a lot of things. BUT. in fact,
the only person who can actually show you love is YOURSELF. The
condition is, IF you open your own heart and forgive, you will
eventually find INNER PEACE and not only LOVE.
There
is this friend of mine in Singapore. She always love me since the day
one we meet. (12 years ago). She's amazing and i am scared of how
much i care and feel the appreciation of how loving she is to me. I
am not perfect. I hurt myself sometimes, i hurt her, but we
always come to the point of solving things with love. A love
friendship. I believe that when you ACCEPT a person for who they are,
the day you meet them (no judging the person from the surface)... you
will never feel doubt and if there is, you will always go back
to the good times and renew. LEARNING how to LOVE is such a tricky
one because there will always be challenges that will come along the
way.
Life
is really complicated when we complicate it. Im sure you agree with
me... but I've learned too that in any relationship there are these
few waves that we will go through yet we are still grateful for these
feelings, the emotions: the pain, the joy, the sorrow, the
heartbreak, the tears of both and neither, there are many people out
there who encountered or experienced pain and yet.. we still find
LOVE at the end.
Oh
well, that's pretty long one. lolz.. Hope you didn't get bored
reading.. lolz.
Buddha hand gesture which means:
"BHUMISPARSA - Calling the Earth To Witness the Truth"
What an experience! Here's another photo
taken at "The Kyaik Pun Pagoda is a small Buddhist monastery
near the town of Bago, known for its four towering images of the
Buddha visible from far away.
The impressive 27 meter high images are out
in the open, without shelter from the elements by any covering temple
structure. The Kyaik Pun Pagoda was built in 1476 by Dhammazedi, a
devout Buddhist and King of the Mon Kingdom of Hanthawaddy (Pegu).
The Kyaik Pun Pagoda or Kyaikpun Paya is an
active place of worship; the images are highly revered by Laotian
Buddhists who come to pay their respect."
"...people
change, even good people, if they get the wrong thing in their head.
And not everything is always what it looks like and sometimes just
because one person looks weak, they might be very strong, and another
person might look like a spooky freak but he might be one of the
kindest people you'd ever meet. And I guess I learned that time is
slippery...We have to enjoy every second, love with all our hearts,
all we can, while we can.” ― Lee Thompson
How
i really wish that sometimes, people will also understand and respect
your feelings and NOT take that for granted. Sometimes, in some
situations, people always believe that you will ALWAYS understand
them, even in an obvious situation that they are the ones at fault.
There are many circumstances when we encounter people like this. Does
it has to do with familiarity? It's when you open the door to certain
people and when that door is fully opened, sadly.. some will just
take that as an opportunity, an opportunity for you to become their
prey.
It
feels so funny when people don't let go of the past. They stick on
that memory and will use that as their defense mechanism to protect
their guilt. Pathetic! What a sad way of letting go of someone whom
you thought its a good person. 2015 is here and like the rest of us,
let go of the past and life must move on. Unfortunately, even if
you're avoiding those past (unhappy) experiences and negative people,
they are always there. Lucky there's a word.. 'choice". On the
other hand, I always believe that when you are kind to these people,
you are always the victim of their trashy personalities.
Many
experiences came along my way and i tell you, all those experiences
thought me to understand the word, FIERCE! Even though this may seem
pretty obvious to a lot of people, you still find way to realize how
lucky you are.
The
other day, i received a message from a good friend, she mentioned to
me about her crappy experiences. Apparently, stories were accumulated
and she can't take it anymore. I asked her how things happened and
she started to tell me.. "i heard from..... " I listened to
her stories until she felt better, whilst reading all her stories, i
realized that i just wasted 60 seconds of time, reading all these
non-sense so i told her.. "you're basically hurt because of the
stories, YOU HEARD?..." and she replied and said... "yes,
because the person who told me was a close friend of mine..."
The
day, i discovered the people who are truly fake (at least from what
i've proven was right) i've given another chance (they don't even
know that.. lolz..) until i had enough of them and honestly, it was
very easy for me to accept who they are.. t'was an A-plus to let go,
to understand, to forgive and to never forget what they taught me (on
how) to deal with them, perhaps? Mostly, there will be NO space of
sorrow or anger. Purely, gained my inner peace... and for their own
benefit, it's a free world after all, so i'm just gonna enjoy eating
my pop-corn watching them with their own little, tiny, bitsy, mind
grinding with all their stories on their brains and proclaim they are
always RIGHT.. lolz..
I
don’t appreciate being judged, and I know I don’t deserve it.
Just like none of us deserve misdirected rage from a family member,
coworker, or stranger. We have a right to set boundaries and
communicate when something is not okay. But the world is a better
place when we choose to do that from a place of love and compassion,
instead of righteousness and judgment. We all act thoughtlessly at
times. Most often we don’t mean to hurt each other. We just don’t
recognize or remember how to STOP hurting ourselves.
