Sunset in my life

“Sunset is a wonderful opportunity for us to appreciate all the great things the sun gives us!” ― Mehmet Murat ildan

Whoa! It has certainly been a while! I remember the last time I was taking photos of the ocean was when I was in Indonesia, that was a year ago. My photo shots is taking me everywhere and I'm really enjoying it. I've been putting my heart and soul into my new project and hopefully it will be fruitful in the end.

The majority of my time will be spent on my website, as i'm busy upgrading and updating my details and busy also doing my project.

Today, I thought to change my cover photo because I thought its about time. Lolz. This sunset photo inspired me a lot lately. From the word “sunset” it already says something powerful about life.

I thought this photo speaks to me so well. I've been through all the ups and downs this past months. Many incidents that is teaching me and reminding me that sometimes, “shit happens.” In some ways, it hit me a bit and changed the way I see and do things.

Over time, I must say that at one stage, my inbox has been flooded with emails from friends around the world, reminding me.. and I quote.. “hey, you're not that.. people think you're like that, but you're not..” OR “..expect people to judge you but let it be, it will pass, real friends will always be there for you no matter what...” what a sweet lines to read, right?

T'was really a one wonderful feeling to know that there are people out there, who cares, loyal and will emotionally support you. I was also touched when I talked to my best friend Abel about life and shit... he said, “people love to see you fall so don't get provoked with their nonsense.. be strong and have faith...” – Going back to my zodiac, it came to me and made me remember, is this really the year of the dragon where its being picked by the sheep? Apparently, not all the dragons are spitting fire, isn't it.. lolz..

As I was taking a photo of the sunset. I thought i'm gonna sit on this big stone and leave my camera next to me. I started again to reflect with so many things. I knew this is what I needed to do. Rewind and unwind.

You know, there's something especially powerful about connecting with people. First, strangers. You will get to know them, become friends, then fights, then hatred, then enemies until suddenly. Sadness.. then again, happiness because you start to meet another strangers and will become friends... its a cycle. But if you come to think about it, seems, to be a Stranger from the start but the connection brought you to life. The journey into wholeness, fulfillment, bliss, self-awareness and purpose that just makes you come even more alive.

So, as the sun started to slowly bidding goodbye. I finally realized that, what happened today is gone. We can't undo things. I guess the sunset speaks a lot with me today. It basically says that, I should work on letting go and stop caring what everyone else thinking and instead define MYSELF. That's a lot of thinking but I figured out how to turn those dark days into something much bigger. I learned that I should continue to live life (on purpose). I learned what it meant to feel blissfully alive while living in alignment with my truth.

(sigh) Anyways, It's now getting dark so I have to go back to our room. On my way back, I took few snap shots of the beach. Which i'm gonna be sharing with you soon.

Life must move on even if the sun sets. Tomorrow is another day filled with sun that shines upon us. Be grateful and happiness will naturally comes back to you.

Much love my dear Friends and thank you once again for reading my long journal today.

MINDFULNESS - FORTUNE TELLING

"When people walk away, let them. Your future is not about the people who stay in it for the ride." - Unknown


(yeah, that's what i do... live life and life will live...)
I thought my weekend went pretty good.... as always! ❤️ hope you're wrapping your weekend wonderfully too...
What I love about Sunday is the part where we do nothing but read, movie and be lazy.
Sharing: Whilst reading my MINDFULNESS book, I came across a line about "Fortune Telling" - I laugh because I can relate to this so much. lolz

Here's a cup of tea whilst waiting yesterday then a quick selfie when we were stuck in the traffic and quote I took from the book I'm reading..

...THE THOUGHT OF...

“Life is too short to waste any amount of time on wondering what other people think about you. In the first place, if they had better things going on in their lives, they wouldn't have the time to sit around and talk about you. What's important to me is not others' opinions of me, but what's important to me is my opinion of myself.”  ― C. JoyBell C

Going through the pace of adjustment period is always the part where challenges arises. Before my surgery, I went pretty deep thinking about the pleasant and unpleasant experiences I'm gonna go through after my operation. I noticed that the part of accepting something new especially when it comes to your health is pretty serious. I don't really know if i can make this change especially when it comes to food intake (strict diet menu) in a long term commitment but i will try. lolz


After two to three weeks of not writing my journal. I thought i will be writing again a long paragraphs of thoughts. I remember when i was at the hospital, i started to reflect again on many things especially those experiences that i've encountered from bad and good. I found that there are many people trying to search for love outside themselves and its about searching for someone to show them that love is such a big word and it does mean a lot of things. BUT. in fact, the only person who can actually show you love is YOURSELF. The condition is, IF you open your own heart and forgive, you will eventually find INNER PEACE and not only LOVE. 


There is this friend of mine in Singapore. She always love me since the day one we meet. (12 years ago). She's amazing and i am scared of how much i care and feel the appreciation of how loving she is to me. I am not perfect. I hurt myself sometimes, i hurt her, but we always come to the point of solving things with love. A love friendship. I believe that when you ACCEPT a person for who they are, the day you meet them (no judging the person from the surface)... you will never feel doubt and if there is, you will always go back to the good times and renew. LEARNING how to LOVE is such a tricky one because there will always be challenges that will come along the way. 


Life is really complicated when we complicate it. Im sure you agree with me... but I've learned too that in any relationship there are these few waves that we will go through yet we are still grateful for these feelings, the emotions: the pain, the joy, the sorrow, the heartbreak, the tears of both and neither, there are many people out there who encountered or experienced pain and yet.. we still find LOVE at the end. 


Oh well, that's pretty long one. lolz.. Hope you didn't get bored reading.. lolz. 

A Visit at the Kyaik Pun Pagoda, Myanmar

Buddha hand gesture which means: "BHUMISPARSA - Calling the Earth To Witness the Truth"

What an experience! Here's another photo taken at "The Kyaik Pun Pagoda is a small Buddhist monastery near the town of Bago, known for its four towering images of the Buddha visible from far away.

The impressive 27 meter high images are out in the open, without shelter from the elements by any covering temple structure. The Kyaik Pun Pagoda was built in 1476 by Dhammazedi, a devout Buddhist and King of the Mon Kingdom of Hanthawaddy (Pegu).

The Kyaik Pun Pagoda or Kyaikpun Paya is an active place of worship; the images are highly revered by Laotian Buddhists who come to pay their respect."

FIRST TANDEM OF THE YEAR: UNDERSTAND & FORGIVE --- (and learn from it)

"...people change, even good people, if they get the wrong thing in their head. And not everything is always what it looks like and sometimes just because one person looks weak, they might be very strong, and another person might look like a spooky freak but he might be one of the kindest people you'd ever meet. And I guess I learned that time is slippery...We have to enjoy every second, love with all our hearts, all we can, while we can.”  ― Lee Thompson

How i really wish that sometimes, people will also understand and respect your feelings and NOT take that for granted. Sometimes, in some situations, people always believe that you will ALWAYS understand them, even in an obvious situation that they are the ones at fault. There are many circumstances when we encounter people like this. Does it has to do with familiarity? It's when you open the door to certain people and when that door is fully opened, sadly.. some will just take that as an opportunity, an opportunity for you to become their prey. 

It feels so funny when people don't let go of the past. They stick on that memory and will use that as their defense mechanism to protect their guilt. Pathetic! What a sad way of letting go of someone whom you thought its a good person. 2015 is here and like the rest of us, let go of the past and life must move on. Unfortunately, even if you're avoiding those past (unhappy) experiences and negative people, they are always there. Lucky there's a word.. 'choice". On the other hand, I always believe that when you are kind to these people, you are always the victim of their trashy personalities.

Many experiences came along my way and i tell you, all those experiences thought me to understand the word, FIERCE! Even though this may seem pretty obvious to a lot of people, you still find way to realize how lucky you are.

The other day, i received a message from a good friend, she mentioned to me about her crappy experiences. Apparently, stories were accumulated and she can't take it anymore. I asked her how things happened and she started to tell me.. "i heard from..... " I listened to her stories until she felt better, whilst reading all her stories, i realized that i just wasted 60 seconds of time, reading all these non-sense so i told her.. "you're basically hurt because of the stories, YOU HEARD?..." and she replied and said... "yes, because the person who told me was a close friend of mine..."



The day, i discovered the people who are truly fake (at least from what i've proven was right) i've given another chance (they don't even know that.. lolz..) until i had enough of them and honestly, it was very easy for me to accept who they are.. t'was an A-plus to let go, to understand, to forgive and to never forget what they taught me (on how) to deal with them, perhaps? Mostly, there will be NO space of sorrow or anger. Purely, gained my inner peace... and for their own benefit, it's a free world after all, so i'm just gonna enjoy eating my pop-corn watching them with their own little, tiny, bitsy, mind grinding with all their stories on their brains and proclaim they are always RIGHT.. lolz.. 



I don’t appreciate being judged, and I know I don’t deserve it. Just like none of us deserve misdirected rage from a family member, coworker, or stranger. We have a right to set boundaries and communicate when something is not okay. But the world is a better place when we choose to do that from a place of love and compassion, instead of righteousness and judgment. We all act thoughtlessly at times. Most often we don’t mean to hurt each other. We just don’t recognize or remember how to STOP hurting ourselves.

WELCOME 2015! -- Resolution..s? ;)

...someone asked me the other day, what's my New Year's Resolution, and i replied and say... for me, i normally don't do a list on that matter and if ever i have one, i just keep that to myself and when its done, I'm secretly proud about it... otherwise, I evaluate myself (like every end of the day) and see what needs to get rid off and to keep and yes, keeping the best of goodies and learning from the bad, nightmare, terrible or whatever experiences that waken me up.. lolz.. 

(metaphorically speaking), I already started to plant my own tree. Hopefully, it will blossom with new leaves. You must be thinking now saying, that depends on how i water it.. ;)

2015 is finally upon us. It doesn't actually mean that we forget the past events but somehow looking back into the unfinished matters that still needed our attention. Made me smile because when you get carried away, you go around and tell everyone about your NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION but the time you're back at your work, you're actually looking at finishing the works undone late last year! lolz. (hopefully you'll be able to finish this week.) sigh.. lolz...

Normally, like every day, Monday is the day where you start to sort things out like noting your weekly things to do and its crazy when you just came back after long holidays. Of all the half-hearted resolutions, I'm still learning too on how to cobble together my yearly resolutions. When i come to think about it, it actually benefits my mental and physical wellbeing. I like to read my daily achievements, little yet productive, that kind of self-motivating too. (is it called, being selfish?) lolz... 


At the end of the day, the only ones i manage to adhere to with any degree of my little daily achievements are those concerning my habits and my passion. My daily pursuit of happyness... (everyone wants a-pe-niss? -- got this line from the movie, Hector and the search for Happiness) lolz

Right. That's my lot for 2015. Fancy sharing yours?

(thank you manang Rosalie for the lovely mug and dear Vicky for the goldy journal.. ;) ) 

FIRST AND A HALF OF DECEMBER THOUGHT

I had the pleasure of enjoying my first and half week of December. Meeting up with friends and was able to cope up with my husband's demand.. "you and me time!" Few invitations here and there.. Calendar is a bit busy lately.. lolz..

In terms of life.. generally speaking.: I choose to stay positive even if sometimes, you encounter negative people, right? lolz..

This week, I've been reading few blogs. I thought my wish is to meet the writers but perhaps Santa might skip this part of this year, as they are so many of my favourites. I love to read post about life, wisdom and fresh experiences shared. It's inspiring and sometimes, motivating! To mention, one of my favorite blogger is my sister of course. Her personality really shines through which i adore, plus.. she's not just a mom who works and comes back home and look after her family but she blows my mind, and she always has such a positive outlook on everything. How cool is that.

Anyways, since we've been talking about Gratitudes. I thought I'd say thank you in a different way. Non stop THANK YOU! As always, as long as we keep going and moving on, daily routines its just something normal?

Big love and big thanks my beau-friends for reading my fb journal. Enjoy your December.... (Up's and Down's we encounter sometimes... but perhaps, its like that, noh?) Sharing you this Japanese proverb and sharing you too love and peace my coolest online friends..